I am so, so sorry for vanishing. Again. I kind of hate myself, because I swore I wouldn't do this, and here I am. That means from now on, I just can't trust myself to post unfinished fics. My new rule is that I have to have the first draft completely written and at least several chapters cleaned up and ready to post. I can't keep doing this to people, and I also want my readers to be able to trust me when I say a post is coming.
That in mind, Dark Skies Looming Over is STILL going to finish. I'm working on it, bit by bit. But I won't start posting again until the first book is complete so that I never make people wait like this again. I feel so bad about it, and it keeps giving me anxiety, so I just need to do it like this from now on.
See, sometimes I want to post things right away. I crave the feedback. I want to feel like people care about what I write, like it isn't just for nothing. But that's incredibly selfish when I can't even follow through. So lesson learned, as hard as it can be to wait. I'm working on several projects right now that I think could be great as soon as they're done. I also have a novel or two that I'm working on with traditional publishing in mind, so those won't be appearing here, of course. Though I probably will post excerpts, etc.
Anyway, this post is for anyone who may still be watching out there. Please know that all of my projects will be finished eventually, and next time I start to post anything, it will be written to the point that, save for tragedy and such beyond my control, deadlines will always be met. I'm very excited about finishing DSLO, and I'm even more excited about getting into Gutter--the dark, futuristic political rebellion fic--as well as Slaying Gods and Torment Ascendeth, two new projects that I think will be pretty awesome if I can just get myself to focus.
I have a lot going on in my life right now, and it scares me a little. I have more time to write than most people, but it gets filled up with a balance of other responsibilities and endless anxiety, with a hint of depression to spice it up. It's frustrating, because I just want to get my stuff out there. But I want it to be quality writing. If I didn't care about quality, this would all be easier, but then I think less people would be interested, wouldn't you say?
Hope you're all doing well, and again, sorry for the pauses. I'm going to try to start posting new chapters of one of my projects beginning early next year, hopefully before April. I'm aiming to release Torment Ascendeth because it has several similarities to DSLO with a darker feel and a heavier amount of action. I have four chapters written, and with luck, I may be able to finish a first draft before the spring. Fingers crossed.
- I may be talking to myself by this point, but...